The Unthinkable Triangle — Joana Starnes

""Eyes tightly shut against the horrifying future, Darcy dug his fingers in his hair. Lost to him forever. Not merely lost, but promised to his cousin - firmly in his life, but never his How in God's name was he to bear it and not become unhinged? How was he to have her at his table as Richard's affianced, and not betray himself? How was he to see her, time and again, and give no sign that he wanted her more than he had ever wanted any woman? How was he to keep up the pretence, day after excruciating day?""

""This cannot be Today's events have tampered with your judgement."
"Elizabeth, pray let my judgement be my concern alone. From the very first days of our acquaintance I sat in judgement instead of courting you, and I paid a terrible price for it. After a year such as I had, there is nothing - nothing, do you hear? - that I would not do to be with you."
He kissed her with a passion bordering on desperation, then burst out, more fiercely than ever: "You must leave me room to hope Or, as God is my witness, by this time tomorrow I will have carried you off to Gretna Green and damn the consequences ""