Losing It — Scarlet Wilder

His touch, his eyes, his lips.I know the feeling well. I practically lose it every time he walks into the room. But I want him for real, and that big “IT”, the V-card that hangs over my head, I need him to know that he can take that from me anytime he wants.He was my one and only crush.If you saw Kyle you'd know why, but he is my brother's best friend, and I doubt he ever saw me as anything more than that dorky kid sister.If I spent as much time with the boys my own age as I did hoping he was coming over, I doubt if I'd still have my V-card.But here I am, in my last year at college and keeping that secret to myself. I still want it to be him. Him to be the one...Even though he'd long since moved away and started living the life that only a guy like Kyle can live, I still want it to be him.Even though that would be wrong in a whole bunch of new ways because he's not just my brother's best friend…Now, he's also my ‘Special Assignment'.