Bittersweet Trust — J.L. Beck

Trust- The firm belief in the reliability, honesty, ability, and strength of someone or something. I let every wall I had built around my heart crumble to the ground for him. He told me to trust him, and I did. I never thought that trusting someone would be my biggest downfall. I listened to his promises and thought I could believe him. I actually thought I could be the reason he would stay... I can't trust him. She can't trust me. I hate him. She hates me.... ... I'm sure of it. Why shouldn't she? I knocked her up and then walked out on her. It's better this way. I'm f***ed up, lost, and no good for her or our baby. The pain is unbearable without her, but she deserves better... At least that's what I keep telling myself. I still love her. I loved him. She loves me, and she knows it... ... But this time she doesn't want me anymore, doesn't need me anymore. Suddenly, it occurs to me that I may have actually lost her for the rest of my life. I need her to love me. I still love him... With the broken promises of the past threatening to destroy us, I don't think we can give in and move forward. Everything has changed between us; I have changed. There are risks I'm not willing to take anymore... If anything, I've learned love is nothing without trust.