Counting Stars — Alannah Carbonneau

Counting Stars is an emotionally charged romance about love and loss â€" and learning to live after everything you've lived for has died. I was with him for six years. Derek was my life, my future, and my dream come true. We had it all â€" the house, the cars, rings on our fingers, and we were even discussing a baby. Derek was my high school sweetheart, my lover, and my best friend. Derek is dead. At only twenty-two years old I am a widow. I've spent the last year of my life filtering through self-help books â€" searching for a way to heal the remnants of my heart. I am broken. It is my incessant searching that leads me to booking a month long trip with The Donnelley's Wild Land Tour's. I was supposed to tour with Gracie â€" but she is incapacitated and she's left me in Logan's care. If I could, I would turn and walk away from this tour. But I can't. This is my last chance at learning to live again. Logan doesn't know I'm broken. When he looks at me, I feel strong again. I feel alive. He pushes me to learn new things, to experience new ways, and to fight. Logan, in all his bluntness has taught me to fight for what I want and what I believe in. I don't know how it happened, but Logan picked up the pieces of my heart and helped me to rebuild it. In him, I've found acceptance in the hardest thing I had to face. We all have a path, and for me, my path has been beautifully painful. I was fated; both blessed and cursed, to love two men with the entirety of my heart. Looking back, I wouldn't change a day, because the pain of the lost life I had with Derek led me to the beautiful present I cherish with Logan.